Totally Unauthorized

A side of the film industry most people never see.


There are two months of the year where work is usually scarce for me – January and June. I always know it’s coming and prepare for it as best I can, but near the end of the month, with rent and bills due, I panic.

I know that there will be more work (and soon), but still. I panic.

I worry that I’m going to drain my bank account on the first of July, never work again, lose my apartment and have to consolidate into a shopping cart.

I worry about not being able to pay my bills and trying to live without electricity.

Or even worse, the internet.

I start looking around for stuff I can sell, even though I don’t own anything of any value.


So today I’m in panic mode. I have to pay rent, cell phone, electricity bill, gym, car insurance and union dues all this week.

Yes, I know I’m over-reacting, but I can’t stop myself.

It’s like this every single fucking year.

You’d think I’d learn.


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2 Responses

  1. Christopher says:

    Hey, I feel ya. I work as a juicer and sometimes-gaffer in Sweden, and it is absolutely the same here. It does take a certain character to endure this type of business. When pockets run dry (and I got two small kids and a girlfriend on parental leave) I take pride in that character, my ability to endure. This doesn’t mean I’m not constantly keeping an eye on that red “GET OUT” button.

    This year I’m lucky, having a three-month gig as a regular on a feature.

    I really enjoy your blog, hope you get more work soon.

  2. Hang tough, Peg, the shit-storm of work for the new TV season will commence in another week or two…

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